Why do women need a movie starring Julia Roberts to get a sense that ordinary is simply boring? Or that life was meant for something more than what we've settled for half the time? I don't know but seems to me that we as women need to truly define what our lives mean to us. Our journeys are not all the same but we certainly should be looking to achieve the same ultimate goal; to find spiritual enlightenment and be all that we can possibly be.
Sure I may be going off on a bit of a rant but I almost at least twice every day; wish that this world was where it was hundreds of years ago. When we depended on the earth and nothing else. We cherished her, we protected her, and we let her take us whatever she wanted to. Where instinct was all we knew. Now we will actually pay other people (who half the time are not in tune with their spirituality) to help us reroute us back to that instinctual path. Listen it's hard on me everyday when I have to go to class and sit there pretending like any of the information they give me is of value to me. I sure as hell shouldn't have to pay someone to teach me about anatomy. Everything is about money and how much you make, that's what the root of our success in this society depends on. It's maddening and getting a bit old now. It wasn't meant to be this way. Degrees, applications, cars, concrete, and machines everywhere like if our life depended on it. When we die will our degrees and everything we worked so hard for come with us too ? Could I take my damn social work degree in the land of the dead? What would I say? What would the others say, having already lived their lives and looking down or up at our current ones?
It's curious to think of, no ?
I think so. I know that at the end of the next grueling semester I will have my degree and probably never look at it again. For my destined path takes me else where and it doesn't require a degree, but a soul. I'm looking forward to continuing my journey of self discovery and spiritual awakening. I want my children (whenever I have them) to have a meaningful existence as well. I couldn't have them believing as I did many many years ago that money, power, and success are on the same plain field. I'm wondering; what does every one else think? Not really just a womens issue but really everyones.
This, to me- was undoubtedly one of your most brilliant and broad pieces. But still dripping with passion, and a total fingerpainted brush of your personality. I feel exactly as you do, that this Earth wasn't meant for what it has become today; people will judge you, rank you, and group you based upon what wage you make, what title you hold or what things you own. I think that we really own nothing in this life, possessions start to own us in a sense....I too want to live a 'naturalist life' and value only the things that really matter, and you know our family will be brought up in a home where they're embraced for their minds and their dreams, their spirit and their imagination- not their looks, height, social aptitude, etc..
ReplyDeleteTo pay people to do things for us, or elevate our status in this society and in this life, is something I feel is ridiculous- but it's necessary for the structure we live in. Worrying over bills, future insurance payments, salaries, is a reality for everyone who hopes to not be homeless and worthless in America. But really, why can't we just try to find a way where we gauge our value as human beings on the goodness in our hearts? Or the inspiration we bring to others, the passion we exude through our own personally driven ambitions like art, writing, music, and a connection to something deeper than themself.
Why the fuck is everything about a name label? Or a 'new vs. used' or about trying to one-up those around you, because you're not truly happy unless you have more useless junk than everyone else. I think that what we fill our minds with is one of the very few things we bring with us when we do leave this life, so in a sense- the degree IS completely useless, but the knowledge gained on the path to achieving it was not. I think this is one of the entries you've contributed that I relate to entirely, and agree with on every level. I know your(our) children will not be motivated to care only for their superficial worth. They'll be nurtured and given direction to always try to find themself, their true identity and life's purpose- no matter how high or low their gross worth may be as a result of it. I love you, and I love the way your brain operates. It inspires me.
You inspire me, strange man whom I do not know. I kinda like how you insinuate that we are going to be together and have children. Perhaps we shall meet some day? Coffee? Hookah ? who knows..
ReplyDeleteBy the way I agree with you whole heartedly....grt comment and thanks for your contribution. It always wonderful to hear your view on things.
ReplyDeleteNo problem, thank YOU for giving me the perspective to always view things in a bigger picture. Worrying about the unimportant 'major stresses' of the here & now where the material defines everything, then meeting you- having my entire mindstate popped open...it just shows how you have such an inspirational effect on all those you encounter.
ReplyDelete(And OH YES- maybe a Hookah or B&N date...that would be marvelous complete stranger/wonderful blogger woman)